some tomorrow today was

it is latening. i am running code, looking to get a feel for the urban density of rural georgia, my computer sniffing the rolling 0000110011011 landscapes, through a satellite memory. this code has demanded the simplest, and most difficult coding things that i have encountered in too long. i must not be being challenged too much as a programmer. good thing i am not a programmer.

spent a good deal of today, writing to my grandparents, three neat sheets.
you mentioned something recently that i began commenting on, and meant to finish commenting on, but failed somehow. i will later stumbled upon it as a tool, in order to think something else.

you mentioned having your thoughts follow trajectories dictated by things you had recently seen or read. then, you experienced a severing of influence, and a liberation in stream of thought, and the impulse to dwell there, and then the realization of that having the potential to become an cognitive overbearer.

this leads, in a way, to my recent seeming inability to sustain certain detailish things in my memory, and my initial despairs in the face of notionloss .. but that, what i seemed to have gained was a greater intuition of how some underlying principles work in more broad classes of phenomena.. a sort of generalization of knowledge, instead of (and in fact in place of) just raw accumulation of knowledge/experience. i realized that, given the finite nature of the human mind, one could process complex information more efficiently if perhaps, instead of having to refer to numerous specific instances, one could harness the essential principle, in its most adaptable form. of course, this is true of us, as in learning, and much, and most else.
the notion to which i might well be referring to, is that of a larger cognitive regime of behavior, on a continuum. we can imagine some humans as having more of a "empirical nature", which creates a perspective centrally based around previously organized and integrated knowledge and experiences, with many well maintained notions, relationships, and strucutres. this is compared to an "intuitive nature", which will less often hardwire solutions or conceptual structure, while more often leaving concept and experience fluid, for revisions and adaptations. where was i going with this?
ah yes, the superefficiency of the intuitive mind! it is not the case!! rather, it is only the case in certain situations, where intuitive leaps and adaptive jumps are advantageous. there are plenty of situations where conventions, structure, and rigidity are more efficient...
this is exactly a notion in complexity science. when a complex adaptive system tunes itself in such a way that, they are right on the edge of stability and instability, they are in the optimally adaptive position. if stability is possible, and useful, then the system can be stable. but, if something changes drastically, the system is not far from an unstable state which kicks it large distances in state space.. potentially allowing it to fall into a state which is more commensurate with the newly transformed surroundings. the whole thing is referred to as evolving to "the edge of chaos",..
whatever it is worth, i was lead hear.

stop document.

though it can not be proven, my existence carries out. it has been hounding through articles for a week or more, bounding from each new of them with shifted thought, curling and froth from being plunged around so suddenly.. and that froth is where i have been playing, at times, lost and idle in the foam of meme birth, and afterbirth, but often orienting, engaging currents and exposing eddies.
our research group consists of an older moroccan woman, and and older indian fellow, the latter of which does`more managerial things than research. we have recently been pushed into a proposal project with another group of scientists who do very different things from us. they are writing a national science foundation grant proposal. we are now tasked with trying to lend our complexity science to their problems. this idea is not straightforward, and the conceivers of it may or maynot have been honest with themselves about this obvious fact. we have endeavored, and postulated, and been spread thin, out into the space of all possible approaches to the ideas in the proposal, and by that spreading, we were sent out searching, from article to article, trying to grasp, and grasp over the structures laid in front of us.. the attempt to represent them to ourselves in such a way that, our tools fit their grooves, and intuitions fumble with shapes of certain or uncertain futures and unfutures. to be clear: there exist two language, ours, call it A, and theirs, call it B. we try construct a language, call it C, so that, when we talk about language B with language C, it sounds like language A.

we others, the domestic researchers, tilled the earth, in a long strip, maybe 120ft by 40ft.
it will be the ground from which we try to feed. the winter should bring us lots of greens..which we certainly can use. they are such efficient vessels of minerals from the earth to its animals.. they are the apex of the teat of nature, and we are ascending toward it... it is a dirty fleshy journey, with metal clashing on wood, deep in the ground.. and it is fortuitously, as erotic as we would care to make it.