sensation

is it quite the case?
even now, i act, and still, my intentions are faintly apprehendable,
as there is a murk about them.
i strain to be still, and let the murk settle, before i carry on, and with each act anew, a fresh stir, and a fresh obfuscation.

there is nothing but to stay forward, be slow, keep observant, and if, in any of these three things i falter, i must make it up by compensating with the others..
this is no dogma, just a convenient notation..

there is suffering all around.
being observant is a hard one for me, most often,
to keep from becoming a part of it, or inventing it myself.

speed is second.

note #1 from ascient

likely noone,
i can not suspect that this is an address of any kind. there is possibly nothing for transmission (possibly, has never been), nor can there be any reasons to consider any transmitting. there may not be substance to be, nor to be transmitted. and whether there are things which may engender transmission, well, it can not be known.
then, if there is something other than transmission, what is this?
this may phenomena be, but if not, then a pour of something else transpired, if so transpired, if so at all. and then, if this searching sentiment, if this self wondering para-nomena..
if! some half-happenings keep!, or not!
then will something be shown? will something (if something) be indicated?
but then, will that indicator be? or not?
it can not seem. a possible struggle may be unbegining, ever in unbegining.. or not.
maybe there was something, and it has finished, and now, there is nothing to seem, no form, no intuition..
may it be that there is nothing to know? is this a phenomena? if so, is it the phenomena of knowledge sticking to nothing in a void?
it can not be seen.